My first three years into Motherhood were spent completely centred around my son. Doing whatever he wanted (even if I didn’t want to do it), going wherever he wanted (even if I didn’t feel like going), and bringing myself into situations and places with people who energetically and emotionally drained me, because I thought that was me being a ‘good Mum’.

I got to a point of feeling really depleted, resentful and frustrated as a Mother, finding it hard to strike any sense of balance or fulfilment. Somehow, my entire life revolved around my son, and the person I once knew (as myself) was no longer there anymore.

I found myself so conflicted. I wanted to be with my son, but I also wanted to work again. I wanted my relationship back with my husband, yet I was desperate for time alone and to do things just for my own personal pleasure. In a sea of Motherhood, I had no idea who I was anymore.

The birth of my daughter marked a turning point for me. I felt like I was gasping for air, barely holding it all together but I was completely unwilling to parent in the same self sacrificing way, as I did with my son.

I was not willing to be lost. I was not willing to feel so separated from my husband in our daily lives and I was not willing to drag myself along to situations out of ‘guilt’ anymore.

I was not willing to yell and scream at my kids anymore, because of my own internal suffering. I was not willing to keep looking for a saviour to come and rescue me. And I became ready to face myself, in a way I had never done before.

I chose to reimagine what Motherhood could be like - starting with my own joy. I dropped the internal victim story that I was running and started to choose to live my life as the powerful creatrix, I AM.

I left no stone unturned. I searched my soul, found my spiritual community, faced my shadow, embodied my grief and pain, tripled down on my yoga practice, meditated daily, worked on forgiveness and decided to let it all go. The divine feminine quality of surrender, became my middle name and best friend. It changed my life.

Lighting myself up, I became the Mum I’ve always longed to be and I was able to reignite my relationship with my husband, at the same time as getting ALL of my own personal needs, wants and desires met.

I gave birth to a whole new version of me, I’d never met before.

This woman was fierce, unstoppable, lit up, radiant, passionate and sensual. She had confidence like never before, a sense of worthiness, patience, connection to her emotions and the divine wisdom that was always within her, and she was able to unleash the delicious divine masculine in her husband. Reigniting the sexual and intimate relationship with him, to a whole new level.

I felt like I’d uncovered a secret. Pandora’s box. The keys to the Mother Goddess Temple that I didn’t even know was within me, and that’s why I’ve made it my life’s mission to help other women do the same.

The world needs more passionate, lit up and sensual Mother Goddesses to claim their space, love their children and unleash their lovers greatest potential so that they can truly love themselves and their lives, with deep reverence and overflowing gratitude.

It is sacred and vital work not only for women as individuals, but as a collective consciousness and I am so grateful to be here doing this work.

The Divine Mother, is calling us home.

Are you hearing the call as well?